{ Searching for the thrill ...

I feel like there's no fun in my life anymore. It's weird because this is coming from a girl that's CONSTANTLY searching for the thrill and believe me I do a pretty damn good job at finding it, just not recently ...

I don't know what it is. It's not like I ran out of fun things to do, I do fun things all the time. For example, I go skating, bowling, arcades, parks, beaches, cookouts, movies, host movie nights, girls nights, road trips, open mics, cruises, concerts, etc. I mean the WHOLE SHABANG, and I still have fun but it's like somethings missing. It's almost like I'm not completely satisfied, or fulfilled. Like a smiley face without the smile - Just incomplete!

Well I'm pretty determined to get to the bottom of this, so I took time to evaluate myself and I came up with a few assumptions . . .

I figured it's the woes of life and what's really going on in our world that's gotten to me yet again. However, I do a real good job at masking those thoughts but from time to time they tend to surface. I'm a child of love so I figure maybe this feeling is a result of the lack of love ... Maybe ... Although, I never felt fully loved I was still complete and ALWAYS took the necessary procedures to have ultimate fun and enjoy life!

Last but not least .... I figured maybe it's my relationship with GOD. Everyone should have a STRONG relationship with GOD, in these days. After all, they say he should be the answer to all your problems, so perhaps my relationship with GOD isn't close enough. Perhaps I need to relink with him or something. Maybe he's what's missing ... I don't know, I'm clueless.

Imagine that you're hungry, and you eat but after eating ALL that food, you're still hungry and you're never quite full? Well, that what it the feels like ... THIS SUCKS!

I just wanna feel complete again, that is all ...

                                                  Lol, gotta love Spongebob though!